The Wakeup Call

“Wake up.”

“mm..”

“Wake up.”

“Why now?”

“Because it is time to wake up”

“No, it isn’t!”

“Yes, it is. If you do not wake up now, you never will.”

I wanna prove my laziness!

So where were we? Oh yes, Talking about being lazy. Sorry, I just was lazy yesterday to explain the whole thing. And am not saying that I’ll be telling you everything today either. Well, to compromise with my laziness, I’ll tell you all those events one by one – day by day. Okay?!.. Oh, I believe there is no other option.
Here we will continue our discussion.


What do you thing is the least thing what certifies you to be lazy – or a quitter? For me one ultimate proof is to skip your examinations. Don’t you think that is? Yes, of course. I thought you will say that. Well, you will come to know why am stating this now when we continue our discussion.


Huh, am making a confession here dude. I did skip my examinations. Not once or twice and again not thrice but many times. While I say I skipped, I don’t mean that I didn’t write those. It’s just that, when am in for writing those and after writing two or three lines I get the laziness filled in my head flow throughout my body and I just won’t write anything more. Even if I know the answers I feel like there is no need to write them. Before every exam I am going to take, I tell myself to do well but end up getting out as early as possible. It’s definitely not fear of examinations. 


But what is it? I had been asking this question ever since I began skipping exams. How odd? Odd, because I haven’t any answer for that question. And now am sure to come up with an option for an answer! Yes, yes, it’s the block made of the thought of changing myself. And the time I realized the truth was/is too late. I skipped my end semester examinations and am waiting for the supplementary examinations. Even am sure about having to redo two courses. And I want to have a good life with all my skills. And as of now I expect this to be done without having to use them. I know how silly it may sound to you people. But think about that idea! How thinkable! Isn’t it?


Well, that is not the right thing. And am determined not to repeat that. The problem is – I have determined the same, many times before.


Is it fair? I have always had this feeling that I am going down the dirty road of living. Always felt guilty about that. And it was this thought of changing my habits which was in my mind at all times. And because of this thought dominating my mind I was never able to focus on anything. First of all I believe it was because of this thought that I began skipping exams.


‘How could that be?’, you might ask. Yeah, I owe you an explanation. When I was doing my degree in Computer Science, I seldom studied but managed to come up with decent scores. I am not a guy who can sit and study, even for at least one hour, which is decent but not enough. I wouldn’t even study the day before examinations! And one day I felt bad about that attitude of mine and decided to change that. Then this thought of changing was the only thing my mind and I couldn’t study or at least read my chapters, even if wanted to. The reason was that each and every time I try studying for the sake of it this thought arises which says ‘Hey, you can’t do this to yourself! You have decided to change and you are trying to study, but this is not the way to do that. You have to put more effort and work hard to change your attitude!’, and then the thought of studying diminishes and the thought of changing comes up glowing. I feed my conscience with the honey that oozes from that thought; not knowing what it does really is to weaken my conscience.


If you ask me, to state one of the several reasons that could have led me to be lazy and to skip my exams, I would say the ‘genes’ played the tough role of a thug. Well, my father skipped his board examinations when he was studying business management in an industrial training institution and ended up running his family business, later ran a bakery and after that is now running an event management group and along with that a medical shop of Ayurvedic medicines.


I don’t want to end up like him, stuck at my home town, but what I felt is I can’t do anything about that! It doesn't mean I don’t like what he does. I respect him because he provides up food and money and the care we need.


When this idea of changing me proved to be futile, I thought I can’t change and that pushed me down further making me even weaker than I could possibly have become before the thought of changing came into my mind. I forgot the fact that I am superior to what my thoughts are and that is what happens to most of us. Instead of making my mind understands what it has to do is to facilitate me to study well, I gave focus on changing myself! Doesn’t it sound ridiculous?


Yes, it is ridiculous. Just think, if you felt this, how stupid I felt about myself? Recently I came across a more feasible way to train my mind. A concept called ‘neuroplasticity’. No, no plastic surgery or such stuff. It is just re-training your brain.


Neuroplasticity says, thinking and engaging in activity can physically alter the brain. Ohho, I know that. Think about change and the brain is altered to think only about changing and only some other necessary things labeled ‘You know what’! And if you train your mind how to study it will get tuned to study. And folks, am going to try that now.


I will continue with this in the following days and friends please come every other day to check out my posts and do comment on them. Thank you. So long.

Inception

Hi there,

You may be intrigued about what am going to tell you guys about me, for the title says am lazy. Guys, may I ask what you people really mean when you say a person is lazy or a quitter?! Well you can add comments about that question after you have read this article.

I can guess something about those answers, like you might say that a real quitter is one who leaves the work he does through halfway. Yes, this is the sign of a quitter and that too of a bad kind. Those people who do such things are real losers and keep blaming their fate or Almighty GOD or others for their incompetence or their lack of enthusiasm. There are the ones who are lame and don’t care for what others say. There are people who are extremely gifted but can’t find excellence which is in them and keep luring at others who have proved their mettle. Also there are people who are devoted and keep on banging at doors where they think they can be helpful but actually their field might be a different one. Such guys [the last batch] get fed up of the work easier but, even then, continues to do their job sincerely until they are brain dead.

Again there is the most elite of them all. Who know their potential, know where they can be of most help, and also they are aware of the ways they can achieve their dreams and even then they tend to take the backseat, preferably a recliner, and they enjoy the show put up by others under a fan put in full speed which helps in getting a good sleep when they are bored. They get stamped as the real losers in the end. It’s not that they don’t want to do anything but simply they won’t. Won’t even lift a finger or won’t bother to raise an eyelid to show that they are awake. They listen to all the crap of this world – music, movies, polit(r)ics, spirituality and such stuff. Normally they get no regrets and have a lot of conscience. We call them the lazy.

When I speak of the lazy, it may seem to be a little peculiar to those people who know me and that too really well. Because I am stamped a real lazy guy. And I cannot say it isn’t obvious because I am lazy and I really want to change myself. Someone really knowledgeable has said that ‘When the thought of changing oneself gets really hard to resist and you can’t do anything about it means that your soul has become a pool of stagnant thoughts, the thought of changing being the block’. Well, you can argue and might even succeed in stating that the above statement is mine but that changes nothing, not a word in that.

Why I am so sure about the above statement is because I have done a lot of thinking on that idea. Yes, when the thought of changing yourself gets into your mind you feel that thought holding you back from the craziest of all things you do to make yourself happy. Being happy being the ultimate idea behind all the things we do in our life, this can cause you feel pain, and the worst of its kind, in exercising this idea and bringing it to life. Then why think about changing one’s self? Is it really needed? Does that really change the way we perceive the world and the ideologies behind the daily chores and junks we practice? Well, that still has to be answered and I am trying to give a brief description about what happened to me when I tried to change many things, which I thought bind me, made me lazy.

Before I give away my description about my experiences [and that too absolutely for FREE!..], let me tell you what I think is a remedy for that itch in the arse [oops!..] or a hammer to break the block which makes your mind a cesspool or stagnant body of unwanted thoughts, the thought of changing being the prime culprit. Just let you be yourself. Nobody can change you and you are best the way you are. But what you should do is to leave the recliner and go sit in the front seat, preferably the driver seat [If you are fond of driving vehicles, of course]. Take control of your life and don’t think about changing. The change will come naturally. Sitting in the backseat and expecting for change to come naturally won’t work. I would like to emphasize on what I said. Do the things you are expected to do and don’t think about changing.

Please give me appropriate feedback for my own good and for those guys who think they are lazy and have ultimate proofs to prove so.

Thank you dear for taking the time to read all of this.